Monday, December 29, 2008

Small Steps

I started physical therapy again today. My orthopedic surgeon wants me to try that for a month and then check in with him to determine if I'm going to need surgery. I'm still taking my meds (I'm up to half a dose, from 1/3, seem to be tolerating it well) and today I started on ashwagandha, an herbal supplement to help my adrenal glands, anxiety and mood. I was a bit scared to take it, as I had tried it a few months ago and had a MASSIVE anxiety attack later on, but since my anxiety seems to be better I figured I'd try it again.
No problems to report!!

Now the next hurdle I have to get over is the habit I got into of falling asleep at 1 or 2 in the morning, sleeping til 11:30 and doing the whole thing again the next day. 
I was rx'd sleeping pills but I haven't picked them up at the pharmacy yet, not sure if I want to go down that road. 
I tried setting my alarm for 10am or so some days, but I just turned it off and tried to go back to sleep. 
If I'm going to go back to work, even part time, I have to be able to get up in the morning and function like a normal human being. 
So that is the next step I have to take..keep up with my meds and start getting up earlier.

I'll keep you posted with my progress...

2 comments:

Tara said...

understandably you want to be on a "normal" schedule. But whatever your body is taking let it take it when it wants it.
Try doing 15 minute intervals at a time.. like tomorrow do 15 mins earlier, also what my shrink helped me with was the idea that i had to make a task. whether it research something or go for a walk around the block, but i had to set a time line and abide by it.. that helped me slowly get on a normal schedule.. try it out. i'm glad to hear your anxiety is getting better though.. that's the scariest part isn't it?!

JayMonster said...

Try "scheduling" yourself something to do several mornings in a row. Often part of the problem in a situation like this is that you sleep later "because you can" and even setting the alarm clock doesn't help because... well... it may wake you up... but you still don't feel like you "need" to get up yet since you are tired. If however you have something planned or scheduled for yourself, well then you would be more inclined to actually get up when the alarm sounds (or at least after hitting snooze a couple of times).

Breaking the cycle isn't "easy" as you will have to be tired for a day or two (at least) to adjust that internal clock, but it certainly can be done, and you can do it if you set your mind to it.